ramblings

Today while I was running a song came on my Ipod, all but like 5 songs which I actually bought and downloaded are Jer's songs that he has downloaded over the years. Anyway, the song repeated "the motivation for me is them telling me what I could not be..."

and I immediately thought to one particular day when I was in high school. When I told my dad that my biggest dream would be to move to San Diego, go to SDSU and be a whale trainer at Sea World. Every time I had been to Sea World and watched the Shamu show, as silly as it sounds, it spoke to my heart. I really wanted to work there. I told my Dad of my plans, and he shot them down. He told me that it would never happen. I don't remember the details of what he said or how he said it, but it broke my heart. I think that may have been the last day I ever even considered that plan. I'm sure he was right, I'm sure it would have never happened. But what if he had encouraged me even a {little} or even helped me achieve that dream? Let me be clear in saying that I love my Dad very much and respect many things about him; one of them is his frank honesty.

But sometimes frank honesty or even a strong opinion is not what you are looking for. Being a parent has made me reflect so much on my youth and my parents, both good and bad.

And one thing I know is, when Brayden tells me he really wants to be an Astronaut more than anything.... I tell him: I can't wait.